Intellectual Crush!

        So, I recently discovered that I have what Urban Dictionary calls an “Intellectual Crush” and my question is: how have I lived so far without knowing that this was a real thing??? I find it SO frustrating that we are raised to believe that if you like someone, you want something with that person, which is like the completely opposite of an intellectual crush. Okay, I’m getting ahead of myself. Let’s go back a bit...

        There’s this boy in my class and just by saying this sentence most people would think that I like him a romantic way and the thing is… I have indeed liked him in that way. It was the 5th Grade, little me had this huge crush in the boy that sat behind her, but who could blame a 10 year old for falling in love with who she thought was the perfect boy? He had everything! Intelligence, sense of humor, prettiness and everything I had dreamed about! Was I in heaven? Because I was sure that I had seen an angel! There was just one tiny problem… Every other girl in the class had the same opinion. But, that is a story for later… 

        Basically, he changed classes at the end of that year and I had to move on. So, imagine my surprise 5 years later when I found out that I was in his class! I promised myself to be cool cause, it had been a long time since I had feelings for him and I totally had other crushes after. There was no way for me to fall for him again, right? Well… Yes and no. I don’t want any romantic thing with him, but there’s this urge inside me to be his friend and just spend like hours talking with him about anything at all. Does that make any sense? It’s like I could hear him talking about any topic for a strangely long period of time and I would totally love it! 

        At first, I thought It was simply admiration and I wasn’t completely wrong. I really admire him, but it’s more than just admiration. When you admire someone you tend to put her in a pedestal and I really wanted to be close friends with him. He was reachable wich meant I might had a shot as his friend and that made me happy.  So, that was a check in the list of things that I wasn't feeling. If that was good or bad, I was still to know... 

        Now, the question that I was avoiding because, you know, I didn't want to have those kind of feelings. Was I back in the "OMG I Want This Angel" mode? Well, hell no! He had a girlfriend and if that argument wasn't good enough, the thought of kissing him or anything like that felt soooo strange and unnecessary. Come on, universe! Not all girl is in love with the boy, another check in the list!

        It was then that I heard about the term “intellectual crush” (let's call it IC) from a  friend and decided to search about it, there was’t that many stuff in this topic besides a definition: “a IC is characterized by love of their mind, independent of their body or physical attraction. The term is platonic in nature. Admiration of their unattainable intellectual or academic skill/thought process/insight, to a level of raw mental magnetism. In context, meant as a true and genuine compliment and can be used between friends or colleagues.” An just like that, my “disease” had a name. That was EXACTLY how I felt about this boy and there was nothing bad about it! Gotta admit that I was relieved... It was all pure intellectual connection.